Experiences

From “conscious mess” to “Cosmic Consciousness”, Sept 2005.

I just returned from 21 days in the intense presence of Bhagavan in the Garden of Eden – now called Anandaloka 3J. To live so closely to Bhagavan was like sitting under a waterfall of grace for 21 days. And this was not all. I also joined the VIP-process of 6 Shamans from Latin America, meditated with the cosmic beings, spoke with my father who died 7 years ago, received the final initiation for giving Mukti-diksha, got specific assignments from Bhagavan, received Ammas blessings of our silver diksha-sandals, had a golden being unfolding inside of me and much more.

I cannot understand how blessed my family is. Since meeting Amma and Bhagavan on the conscious level in September 2003 the gifts have poured down from the sky. Cecil (my wife) and I both received permanent enlightenment in 2004, my mother was cured from terminal cancer after this, my brother received a breakthrough to a liberated state of being in your bulldozer course in September 2004 and the relationships in my family has improved by a 1000%. It is unbelievable.

Then Cecil and I received the gift to be able to transfer the Amma Bhagavan Energy through healing deekshas in the autumn of 2004 and we have been conducting eight satsangs and four 3/7-day retreats. In the satsangs/retreats people have come back again and again so we have had the opportunity to follow their progress. It is amazing. I have worked with personal development in the business world for many years and have seen what results longer courses can actually create in terms of unfolding potentials of the participants. But to work in the energy of Amma and Bhagavans grace is like seing the films taken over several days of flowers unfolding, and then to watch it over a time span of only 5 seconds. The speed is incredible. The results that before would take a life time of meditation, yoga, transpersonal therapy etc are created within days. We have witnessed several spontaneous healing occurring, lung cancer, heart diseases, back injuries and more. The doctors in the hospitals have been amazed. I feel so privileged to be a witness and a part of these transformations.

My own state has steadily grown deeper and wider. There are many spiritual peak experiences (I will come back to them later) but the greatest thing is the freedom I feel in every now – no matter what the situation is. Before enlightenment life had given me everything I had asked for on the physical plane. I had the best wife and child I could dream of, I lived in my favourite house on this earth, I had the most interesting job in the world with lots of freedom, I had purchased my favorite car (very cheap), I had one of the best spiritual teachers and a good meditation and yoga practise. But there was something missing. I was still dissatisfied and suffering. I felt this constant undercurrent of dissatisfaction and I encountered conflicts inside and outside. It was the existential suffering from feeling separated from my Self and others. Then Amma and Bhagavan turned this dissatisfaction into a permanent flow of joy. They transformed my “conscious-mess” into cosmic consciousness. They dissolved my ego in a gigantic flash of light followed by a constant instream of Bhagavans consciousness. It happened March 6^th 2004 – on the wedding day of my parents of course – as a celebration of them and the integration of female and male energies in me. My life has since then changed from being a spiritual quest to being a permanent mystical experience. The quality of everyday functional life is so fantastic. I am Thankfulness itself.

Being in Anandaloka 3 in August 2005 was like taking a space ship on WARP speed – going deeper into the cosmic consciousness. The I Am presence somehow became thicker and even more PRESENT. This was experienced walking around in slow motion looking at the funny squirrels, monkeys, dogs and people in Anandaloka 3. The instream of grace was felt 24/7 and sometimes gave electro shocks to the body. The in stream was especially powerful in the crown chakra and the heart chakra. One day after a sweat lodge ceremony performed by the shamans my crown chakra opened to a size I had not experienced before. It was as wide as my shoulders and moved down the body like a scanner until it reached the heart. What a blessing – it was like a new frequency-shift in every single cell of my body.

We did Padhuka Pujas, Homas, deekshas in powerplaces in nature and much more. We also visited the Shakti Stall and sat on the roof of this building that I consider the most important building in the history of mankind. I cannot believe how privileged we are being small parts of this fantastic process called the transition to the Golden Age.

One night I was sitting in front of the Shrimurti and suddenly a Golden Being the shape of a man started unfolding inside me like a flower. It was so beautiful and it was growing out of a mysterious stiffness I had in upper part of the back and the neck. The more the pain was accepted the more the Golden Being grew. The stiffness was the pain of the world and this golden being was the transformation of mankind. It showed me directly that the more light we dare face – the more darkness we can transform. (As Mandela says - it is not our darkness that frightens us the most - but our light). After the experience the I Am Presence or the Bhagavan Presence in me was even stronger and I experience the ability to transform the darkness residing in the collective consciousness has grown to yet another level.

Another night I was going on an Astral journey with Amma and Bhagavan. First we were dancing and doing circus stunts – it was hilarious. Then we travelled to Europe, went skiing in the Alps and bungyjumping in Denmark. Then we visited the farm on the Island where Cecil and I live. Cecil and I showed Amma and Bhagavan how we intend to turn it into a Oneness Center with satsangs and courses and they gave us our blessings.

Then came the last evening where I was to meet Bhagavan in His physical form. I entered the room which was filled with the cosmic energy emanating from His body. His loving eyes said welcome and made me very calm and energised at the same time. I thanked Bhagavan for blessing my family to this extreme degree. We spoke about how Cecil and I should approach our work with satsangs and courses and He gave us a specific assignment going to UK, Germany, Finland and Norway. This was also what He had said to us on the inner planes before I came to India, so I could not help smiling and told Him that we had already started the planning of courses in these countries. It was such a beautiful experience to feel His love and get his direct guidance on the physical plane. I asked Him to bless our work and give us full power – and He did.

Now Cecil and I have a wonderful programme for the rest of 2005. We will start doing courses in UK and Germany and next year we are going to Norway and Finland. If you have contacts in these countries we are happy to receive them by mail. We are also planning a Desert-retreat in Marocco and a Flow-retreat with skiing and deekshas in the beautiful mountains of Italy this winter.

I wish you continued success wherever you are and send all my love and gratitude!

Love, light and laughter!

Bruhn

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