Experiences

After Retreat on Samsoe autumn 2005

Hi Cecil,

I want to give you a little feedback on the last retreat.

It made me feel so good. Funny, it was only after a few days at home I realised just how much.

During the retreat, especially the first 2 days I wanted so much to run away. It was very provocative for my mind, which really surprised me since most of my life I have had a spiritual perspective on life.....but of course never this intense.

I had to face many of my repressed emotions and had some insight into them.

I succeeded in letting go of the resistance the last couple of days - it is all about the fear....a beautiful experience to let go and trust instead. For some time before the retreat trust has been an issue I've focused on and I must say it gave it just about all I could take...."learning it the hard way".

I had a very strong experience with you during the last deeksha, where I felt my heart chakra fill up so much that I could hardly bear it. So much love at the same time. A feeling of bliss that still brings tears of gratitude to my eyes, and a knowing that it is all there, right where it should be, and that it was always so.

The day after the retreat I was called to work in a canteen as a substitute and had only 2½ hour to make a buffet for 36 people. I didn't know the place or anything about the menu. Usually this would really have stressed me and made me feel unsafe, but now I was completely cool about it looking forward to the challenge. I managed to make a super delicious buffet and people loved and were really amazed that I had had time to make so much. Well, it also amazed me... and this whole week I have been so happy finding everyone so friendly and positive. What is going on ;o)

I have grown addicted to meditation and sometimes experience physical things happening in the body. Feel that I am more open....and very grateful and when I feel a very strong connection to the Divine.....well, then my heart chakra is itching !! I have felt this before during a healing course where I was reconnected to the Universal energy....back then it was just the palms of my hands itching.

Speaking of the heart chakra... when we made the chakra meditation and Bruhn and you were saying the so-called magical words my heart chakra fell into the rhythm of the words you were saying. My very first thought was "uh, now my heart is out of rhythm" as it sometimes is, but it wasn't really the heart and the rhythm was in complete sync with the words you were saying....stopping at the last, beginning at the first....WIERD.....

All in all many things have changed within me. And I feel full of gratitude towards you, the Universe, my Self and so much more....

Everything is as it should be and that is not half bad....

I am not sure that I can come between Christmas and New Year, but for sure anther time. Missing you already :o)

Felt very much at home and felt a very close contact with all the others. Especially in the silence. Like coming home to one big family.

Samsoe rules!!! ;o)

Just felt like sharing...

Lots of love to Bruhn and Milla of course

Giant hug from Manne

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